Ok Albuquerque, you and I are going to have a little talk.

I know that a lot of your land and houses are ghetto. I know that a lot of property owners in this town are greedy money handlers who think that they deserve $200,000 for their little two bedroom one bath shack, but it needs to stop. This is fucking ridiculous. If I see one more piece of shit described as "lovely" and "artistic" that turns out to have holes in the walls and needs an entire bathtub installed, I'm going to fucking flip. I know that I'm asking a lot for a house that costs $140,000 - but not that much. This isn't fucking California people, stop thinking it is. And by the way, if you say that the house has a pool, do us all a favor an mention that the pool just happens to be filled with dirt, and has cinderblocks for walls, instead of concrete, would you? It's really the little things that I'm asking for. I refuse to believe that I have to pay $300,000 for a house that's barely livable in this town, but if I do, then color me uninterested. Everyone thinks that slapping a coat of paint and a new fridge makes your damn house worth the world here. I'm going to explain this to you; it's not. Albuquerque's Real Estate market is bloated and overblown, and if all you jokers want to hang on waiting for someone like me to give you 300k for your Tuff Shed with a bathroom, you've got another thing coming. Get over yourself.

God. Thank you, I needed that.

If anyone is interested, I am selling my Ensoniq EPS 16 rackmount sampler module as well as a z00m rhythmtrak 234 drum machine, and perhaps my roland TR-505. I might have mentioned this. If I didn't, well, I did now. Buy them. I don't have room, I don't use them, and I won't give them to goodwill.

sleep for the weak

I have realized something this morning;

I cannot sleep for more than six hours straight. I guess it's better than only being able to sleep for a couple hours; but, it is also pretty annoying. For months now I have been waking up (usually) at 4am on the dot - usually after having gone to sleep at 10 or 11 (working at Trader Joe's, you have to be there by 5 or 6 am sometimes). It only dawned on me today that I am only sleeping six hours before I *POP* awake, and falling asleep is almost useless after that.

I doubt I really have a fix for this right now - it's just that sometimes, it'd be nice to sleep a _little_ more.

i want to releaese a real CD...

... but I worry that if I do, if I take the freakin' 1 grand to make a CD myself, that no one would buy it. I worry that no one would really show up to my CD release party, that I'd have this room full of CDs (which I already have from my past record label releases) that no one would buy. I love my music, and I get really annoyed that I feel this way about it. I get down because there's only so much I can do on stage, I'm one guy, and I don't have the ability to do a bazillion things on stage, but then I get upstaged by bands like RAP, I suppose because I don't play the keyboard enough, even though I'm always running loops, doing vocals, etc. etc., which I don't really see anyone else doing live electro doing, but I fucking swear, getting people into just dancing is sometimes such a fucking trial, I mean, what do I have to do? Do I need to jump up and down whilst on fire on stage?

A specific moment sticks out in my head from one of my last live outings, which is that afterwards I walked around with CD's and stickers litterally just giving them away, or trying to. I got nothing out, because everyone I walked up to said, "no, I don't want any stickers or CD's". WTF? THEY'RE FREE. Wow.

See, and the thing is, it doesn't make me lose faith in my music. I make good music, and if anyone doesn't think so, suck my fucking ass. BUT, it does make me feel really annoyed with our scene. What, I need to some fucking showoff fucktard using stupid tricks on stage to get people to fucking take my fucking free CD's?

I dunno. It just annoys me, and it makes me feel like if I do release a CD, no one's gonna bother giving me $7 for it, don't even add onto that that everyone gets their fucking music from myspace and limewire. I guess I'm just one of those old fashioned fucks that still remembers that if you support a band, they keep making good music. If you don't, they go away, or they go get straigt jobs and forget about their music entirely.

Well, not me. I won't do that. But I will approach releasing a CD with apprehension.

WTF is with electronic producers saying now that they don't like the sound of electronics? First the douchebag from LCD fucksystem is whining about people throwing sets from their laptops and "not trying to throw live shows", and now I read about Air saying that they "hate cut and paste". IT'S COMPUTER MUSIC FUCKTARDS. It's cut and paste, it's electronic, it's not anything that is for fucking should be definable. The fact that you're able to say this now, being that you made your fucking careers on computers, is totally egotistical and without bearing. If you have such a problem with computer music, stop fucking making it, you morons. Oh, but I guess then, no one would like you, because in the pop music world, your music would be what?







Undefinable.


In other news, my new job goes well, I have not had a lot to do lately but I imagine that will change when we release the first major product into retail, that product being Nexsyn, which I have been using in production for awhile now, and very much enjoying. It's very odd for me to be doing a job like this, I am again at a pace where I am more self-driven, which is nice. I also have to figure out how I am to work out all my taxes and such, as I am responsible for that crap in my own format with this gig. I am not crazy about this, but that is how things go.

I got asked to do the music to a talk show that is coming on CBS late night around here in april, and I have been working on that. Cheesey, simple 30 second loops, things like that.

Tomorrow I play uptown bar and grill with Diverje, around 10pm.

And, of course, don't foget to vote at alibi.com for the best of burque. You have until 3pm on the 12th to do so. Later than that, and you're a loser.

I just wrote this letter to remix mag in response to LCD soundsystem's interview in their mag which says that artists who throw live sets from laptops are "a waste of time":
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While I might understand James Murphy's hatred for bands and artists who crouch behind laptops while throwing live sets, he should perhaps consider something; not all of us have the ability to hire on a live band to play our songs, and that does not mean that we should be confined to our bedrooms until we can get a live band and put on a "proper live show". I've seen sets that absolutely kill from two guys, a laptop and a few synths, and I've seen horrible sets from huge bands who claim to be amazing in their six piece zealotry. I don't even know that I care about having a live band with me anyway - not having someone on a drum kit has not stopped me from using live instrumentation and vocals in my songs, and it certainly hasn't made anyone not want to see me live.

All this "I'm better than you because I have a band" crap doesn't change the fact that if people like coming to your show to actually dance to your music, they're doing just that, not dancing to you wanking off in front of them because you're a rockstar on stage with a backing band. We're not all monkeys checking our email, Mr. Murphy, some of us are actually working.
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Murphy sounds like a conceded douchebag, if you ask me. I'm glad you made lots of money and can afford a live band. I can't, nor do I much care right now. So fuck off. It's no matter, I don't like his music anyway.