I'm a bit urked right now... for some reason an old friend of mine decided it would be cool to flame me on a message board I frequent... and yes, most of you know which board I'm talking about and even whom I speak of - and he did it for apparently no reason. I guess that people really don't ever let go of things, no matter what they say. He and I did some hurtful things to each other, and I'm not going to play the blame game because really we're both to blame, but it seems that despite the fact that we both said goodbye to our differences and sorry about what we had done, he sees it fit to slam me when I compliment him on his music. I suppose that in a small, VERY small way I see where he's coming from - mostly because in a lot of ways, you just can't go back to old friendships or relationships and have them be the same. But, I don't believe that there is a reason to be hurtful when there's been no reason given to be. I get really tired of drama - especially when there's no reason for it. I'm at a point in my life now where I say what's on my mind when it's on my mind - and if people don't like that fact, they can fuck off, period. I've spent the last seven years of my life doing things for other people and taking care of people who are ungrateful. I'm tired of it. I'm not going to burn bridges or talk shit - that merely makes for more drama - but I am going to say that there was no reason for this to come about, and it makes me realize that I should stop trying to be nice to people who really just turn around and stab me in the back.

Well, I just had an interview at Trader Joe's, and bore thru the questions they dropped on me, the usual, "where do you see yourself in the company," "what was your last job like," "how are you in large groups,", stuff like that. I got thru it fine, but at the end the guys tell me that the schedule I put myself down for might not fit what they're looking for, to which I replied, "well, I didn't know what your work hours were like, so I just put myself down for some hours," some hours being 8 am to 7 pm everyday of the week. What it balanced out to was that I put down that I'd work open to close on monday, wednesday and thursday. We'll see if it gets me something. I certainly hope - but I'm not all too exuberant about getting a new job right now, as nothing has panned out.

Suppose we'll see, I feel like blah right now, ugh.

what do you do when someone gets on a webboard you love and starts talking like a crazy neo-nazi nutbag?

missing out

I will from now on be cross-posting my blog posts from my livejournal blog at botkiller.livejournal.com on here as well, not that anyone reads it, but ces't la vie.
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I feel like I'm missing out on things I should do to promote my music and get my name known. It seems like everyone is going on tour but me - not that I really have the resources to go on tour, I guess. I'd have to rent a car and book the whole thing, and I don't know what I have time enough to do that. But I'd really like to get my music out there some more, because all I have right now is the time

that I can spend promoting, which is not much. I guess it's something, but there's gotta be a way to hit some markets hard.

If you know of any radio stations that could use a little botkillin', you should let me know.

And you should call Blu 102.9 in Santa Fe and request my song "Dark Nature" - their number is 505-984-1029.