things i want

oh man, I think I'm going backwards in my music wants. 8bit, chiptune and simple tunes are really enticing me right now. I have been coming across some awesome stuff today, such as this:


http://www.tokyoplastic.com/musicbox.html

OMG. Steen, you will love this.

I would like to get everything in this auction:

http://cgi.ebay.com/nanoloop-lsdj-little-sound-dj-game-boy-advance-games-gb_W0QQitemZ300083827501QQihZ020QQcategoryZ38071QQssPageNameZWDVWQQrdZ1QQcmdZViewItem

And finally I'm really enjoying music by this man:

http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=13095473

I have decided that I want to get nanoloop for my gameboy and start fucking with chiptunes. Nintendo music has always been something I love, I am one of those people who can listen to music from Secret of mana on on the super NES over and over again and not get tired of it. Maybe I should go on making some Nintendo music, it's kind of in my blood.

the origin of my name

this is a response to a friend of mine's post about where your LJ name/handle ect. came from.

I've told the story a few times, but I will do so again here for posterity.

In about 1992 and up 'til about 1999, I was ALWAYS on IRC and various hacking this and that's on the net.

I spent a ton of time on IRC as it was, and still is, one of my favorite communities on the net. I was on DALnet a lot and I found that channels were taken over often by Bots, software scripts which usually did menial tasks on networks such as mass pinging and other network commands which could be used to compromise an IRC channel and take it over. I began to get known because I wrote a number of scripts which killed these bots, and thus helped a lot of sysadmins who had their hands full. I got known as the botkiller.

You can probably still find some of my scripts on the net somewhere, if you look.

As time went on, I started running a hacking website and blogging before blogging was this bullshit called the "blogosphere". I ranted and raved about things political, and a lot about the mistreatment of Kevin Mitnick and other hackers and the state of hacker community in general.

I continued to use the name botkiller at this point because in my mind, the point was that people think like robots, and my goal was to stop that. Not by killing them, but you know, it's better than "botviewchanger".

I stopped running this site in 2000 or so, when I was getting at least 1500 hits a day or more. I had, as far as I could tell, one of the most popular hacking/free speech "blogs" on the net at that time.

That brings us to now, where I use the name botkiller in all forms, but mostly just in that I like the name, I like that other people don't have it, and I like that it is my name. It does not apply to my music directly, as if it did I think I would be making much more harsh music, and I don't.

That's all there is to it, now you know. And knowing, my friends, is half the battle.

Well, I just found out that, unless I am making a mistake, I owe $557 on my taxes. Apparently I didn't do my W4 right when I got hired by Trader Joe's, or something. Such bullshit. People always say, "well, you had that money for the year before you did your taxes, so that's good"... but, it's not. The fact is that we are raped over and over again by the IRS, and it just makes me fucking sick. I would not have an issue with paying taxes if it were not for the fact that I pay Federal and state taxes and THEN I have to pay for medicaid and social security, both of which I will NEVER get to use - so I am effectively throwing money away. It makes me fucking sick. The government needs a fucking revamp - because it is just gross what is done to us as citizens when it comes to tax money.

Don't tell me that my tax dollars pay for important social needs and things of that like. I've not seen my tax money going to anything that I believe in EVER.

Fucking FUCK.

Today was my last day at TJ's and I feel now like I should have kept working thru this thursday when I go to work for keytosound, because then I'd have more money, but, that's all over now.

I just can't tell you how anygry I am that I made a whopping total of 22 grand last year, and yet I STILL owe the fucking douchbag IRS money.

In other news, fucking suport:

Please vote. Other suggested categories to vote for:

best performance troupe - burlesque noir
best rock band - vertigo venus
best dj - dj kentifyr
best bar - burt's tiki lounge
best nonprofit organization - roadrunner food bank
best radio station - kunm
best radio personality - tommy t
best local website - burque.info
best overall band - brian botkiller
best comedian - matt peterson
best all ages venue - sol arts
best movie theater - guild cinema
and finally, a write in at the bottom of the page -
BEST INDUSTRIAL BAND - - Diverje (this is a write-in at the bottom of the page)

I'd really appreciate it. If some lame ass band gets in again this year I will be thoroughly annoyed.

renewing my resolve

A lot of things lately are making me want to really tear some shit up. In a good way, at least.

The main driving force here is that I want to actually have people rock the fuck out to my music. I played Burt's on tuesday with the Booty Green and RAP, and while people did _kinda_ get down to my stuff (which was backed by the brilliant VJ styles of Steen), they just were not really being too supportive... but I can't figure out why. I know that my music is not fucking DJ Sasha or something - but my production value and my ability to make dance tracks that are not combichrist ripoffs are still quite high. I'm not talking shit here - to each their own. But people seem to be really into the minimalist synth sound, which I enjoy in it's own ways, but I can't really see how my music, in the essence of being there to make people dance, is any different. No, I don't play the Keytar, but I do live vocals all the time, I change songs up, I work my f'ing ass off to get people to dance, but sometimes all you get is a blank stare. I think that maybe people just don't know what to do to my music sometimes. I guess it's too complex, which is inane to me, as I don't consider my music complex in almost any way. There's still 4/4 bass kicks, repetitive synth and bass lines, and general dance music progression.

I think that it is time for a Renaissance. You've all heard me rant about pop music - well, I think that what I often say is more true now than ever. It seems like music in general is getting more and more dumbed down, dried out and boring. Justin Timberlake's "sexyback" is nothing but one repeating pattern. ONE. That's it. People love it because it's so simple a blind monkey with no arms could have programmed it, and for some reason they choose to dance to it in that case. I just can't, nor won't, believe that this kind of bullshit is going to continue being the hot shit forever, and I can't and won't believe that artists like myself that have been doing this shit locally for so damn long will be overlooked so easily for projects that people so readily consider "the new hot shit". It is time to hand some people their asses.

Speaking of which, you should vote me best band in burque at http://alibi.com/index.php?scn=bob_vote , I want to make a damn mark on this thing this year. I have like two weeks to campaign for it, and I'm going to. I'm sick and tired of being overlooked - not in an angry way, but in a way that makes me want to strengthen my resolve and kick some serious asses.

ch ch changes

man o man, life is interesting so often.

In the past week or so, I have informed Trader Joe's that I am quitting, and going to work with Keytosound, whom you may remember kindly sponsored oscillation six, and basically allowed us to have good advertising for the fest. Anyway, they offered me a tech support job with them, and I would be insane to not take it. It's working within the field of what I love to do, electronic music, it's computers, and all kinds of geeky shit. I will have to buy my benefits thru Molly, and it will be a transition... but hopefully more into what I LIKE to do, rather than just making money and trying to do what I like after that. So, that, my friends, is pretty awesome. This is also the first time that a company has offered ME a job, rather than me asking for one. I'm really psyched about this, for once.

I am also gigging like crazy this coming week - I play at the district tonite doing a set of my work plus with Diverje, then I play tuesday at burt's in a solo set with RAP for fat tuesday. then I play Ralli's with Diverje on the 22nd, and then AMC on friday the 23rd with Vertigo Venus. That's a lot of gigging.


I have also written a new song, and you can find it here:
http://burque.info/song01363.php

I'm enjoying making minimal 8bit tunes lately. Tell me what you think.

I also REALLY want to buy a house. I am SICK AND TIRED of dealing with living in an apartment. I have a great deal, I do. BUT, if I have to be woken up in the middle of the night AGAIN by the fuckwad below me bellowing his bassy shit, I will go insane. But, finding a house, and getting it, is bloddy ridiculous. But dammit, I want a house. I want to start doing things differently. Now is the time, dammit.